Ryan's been out of town the last couple of weekends for hunting season, and then last week for an Alaska salmon fishing trip. All have been in the works for a long time, and Ryan's been so excited to go. And me? I have LOOOVED the alone time.
I've been cleaning out and putting together our new home. I really enjoy constructing a home that evokes feelings of peace, solitude, safety, joy. A form of female psychologization that no one in the household realizes the woman is consciously providing for the inhabitants. But it's a woman's witchcraft to build such a place. A talent. And as I organized our home, I built little spaces of meditation in each room. Perhaps it would be wise to have a space of small moments in every room of the house. Like a reminder to stop and worship upon walking through any doorway, and then one can proceed with tasks and cares. I created one in my closet for writing. That space is intimate and safe and will help me think very openly. I created one in my laundry room. This space represents doer, domestic builder, and while the mom is often the most demanded entity in a home, I can also pause here to feel the joy and fulfillment I find in this role. And of course, the bathroom meditation on the toilet.
I've been going to the temple every Friday. One week, Sharla and I went together. The temple is such a powerful place for me. Especially because in the first few weeks of our marriage, I experienced some anxiety related to all the shifting and adjusting, and I experienced some of my past trauma surfacing. I looked forward to going to the temple every Friday, knowing I would get to experience that pure peace. I LOVE it. One night, I came out to mints and chocolates on my car with a nice note that thanked me for serving that night.
I went to Kami's beautiful new house to watch her film a class on living Cleansing Your Life, and then I went back to her house a few nights later to watch her four kids for an evening. It was SOO much fun for me - I loved all their little personalities, and then analyzing them with Kami and Travis when they got home from their date. I also read The Mood Cure while I was at her house and haven't stopped thinking about it since.
While Ryan was in Alaska, I went to his extended family reunion by myself, and everyone was way impressed that I would come solo. Then I went to family dinner at his aunt and uncles and cousin's house the next day.
I painted my nails, which rarely happens so it was worthy of note.
I went for several walks in the sun and called my friends to talk on the phone. (you, Kelli!! And you, Allie!! Love you gals!). I was telling Kelli about my success in organizing Ryan and I's little apartment, and she agreed with my skill, so we decided I will fly out there sometime to organize her belongings! Love that idea!!
I read the book Your Money or Your life THREE times. I loved it! And on my walks, I created a little financial seminar to present to people.
On my walks, I also took pictures of the beautiful homes in our new neighborhood. Okay, one picture.
I have been SO happy lately. It is a good life.
Upward and onward,