The best of times

28 May 2015

And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.  -Kiersten White, The Chaos of Stars

The last little while with Ryan has been the best it's ever been, and we've had some good times.

We have just been REALLLY seeing each other, and loving each other, and taking care of each other.  Our future is so clear and aligned and we are so so so so much in love.  We both want to take care of each other, asking for specific things we can pray for each other each day.  And we are aware of each other in a way we've never been, and our desires and goals for our futures and our families and our relationship are so strong and so aligned.  I feel so empowered and in order and confident about him.  I LOVE him.  I love who he is so so so so much.  Such a responsible and respectful man.  A man that makes me feel safe physically, financially, emotionally, sexually, spritually, intellectually.  A man who completely encapsulates masculine energy.  EVERY aspect of our relationship is so perfectly synced and fulfilling.  We meet each other's needs in every way.  There is nothing left dangling.

And I LOVE that our relationship has had such a long courtship and a path of such varied terrain.    We've been through good times together, and we've been through hard times together.  At times, we had to be completely exposed and honest and shed what just could not be to produce such a celestial relationship.  To be further intimate and joined, we had to be completely honest and willing.  We both felt the vulnerability, we both felt the remorse our human weaknesses, and we both gave the commitment to take what we needed to to the altar of sacrifice and shed it for our greater unity.  And we did.  And now our unity is without question, a companionship I have never yet experienced.

We have both lived in a way that has cultivated a lot of courage and passion in each of us.

I love him.  I love it all.

You don’t measure love in time. You measure love in transformation. Sometimes the longest connections yield very little growth, while the briefest of encounters change everything. The heart doesn’t wear a watch - it’s timeless. It doesn’t care how long you know someone. It doesn’t care if you had a 40 year anniversary if there is no juice in the connection. What the heart cares about is resonance. Resonance that opens it, resonance that enlivens it, resonance that calls it home. And when it finds it, the transformation begins.   -Jeff Brown

Upward and onward,

Image source:  Maurice Sapiro aka Maurice L. Sapiro (b. 1932, NJ, USA) - Moonglow, 2014    Paintings: Oil

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